March 20, 2012
I love tumblr and all

…but I kind of wish I had a writer’s type of blog. Instead I really just have a tumblr, a thing I use to post funny things people say, pics, or images I find beautiful. The occasional song here or there, not really, and when I’m feeling lonely a text post talking to imaginary people I think are listening. Every time I think of whining I think of writing it down here, and I pretty much never do, but I’d rather have a sophisticated blog which I intend to write down my composed thoughts, rather than a catch-all social media site where I can talk when I want people to listen. When I write about serious things, I write not for you to listen but for me to remember what I’m thinking. When I want people to listen, I have nothing truly valid to say except my emotions which may or may not be relatable and [that word for releasing an emotion by seeing/hearing it somewhere else] for you to read.

I think I’m going to start a wordpress. Let’s see if I keep up with it, or just start doing all that writing on here instead.

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March 17, 2012
The new me

The new me

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March 4, 2012
Too cool for you niggas

Too cool for you niggas

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February 3, 2012
Success and Elitism are not synonmous

I used to have a great contempt for those who take pride in being poor and pathetic. Those who praise the victims, and damn the strong. I used to also feel this way, but I feel like it could never be more wrong. They say everyone deserves a fair share, when the reality is we all have to earn our fair share. I think it all goes without saying that some of us are dealt shitty hands and others get really great cards, but the truth I believe is that it goes how we play them.

But then I got sucked into the idea that playing cards right, and being successful despite the circumstances was the only right answer. But I find lately that this is only a very skewed version of the truth. Because success often leads to unearned and poorly-founded beliefs, that wealth is success and success is wealth. Wealth is often attributed to Elitism, the belief that anything of higher status is better than anything else. But “status” is a false sense of value that’s attributed to where something is and nothow it got there.

The cause of something is the important thing to remember, not the effect. Wealth is not the thing of concern, it’sability, whichcanbe the cause of wealth, but is not always. It’s truly ability that needs to garnish ones respect.

But then we must remember the other side as well: ability without execution and utility is wasted effort, and that person turns into a victim, a unique and capable individual who was not *given* the opportunity to prove it, but this is not a thing to praise. No one gives you a chance, you have to take chances.

Play the cards your dealt in the best way you know how, but only those who make risky moves will ever see themselves beat the odds.

December 1, 2011
thewillbrennan:

“I, Samael, am not in need of henchmen or followers, but only imitators of my doctrine: Gnosis. I do not follow anyone, nor do I want anyone to follow me. What I want is for each one of you to follow his own Self. I am only a lighthouse in the sea of existence, and I do not need clientele in order to subsist. Since I am against the slavery of souls, I do not want to enslave any soul, nor do I agree with executioners of ideals. Masters exists in abundance, and I am only one of many; thus, those who want to find the Masters will find them inside, within the profundities of their own inner consciousness.

—Samael Aun Weor

thewillbrennan:

I, Samael, am not in need of henchmen or followers, but only imitators of my doctrine: Gnosis. I do not follow anyone, nor do I want anyone to follow me. What I want is for each one of you to follow his own Self. I am only a lighthouse in the sea of existence, and I do not need clientele in order to subsist. Since I am against the slavery of souls, I do not want to enslave any soul, nor do I agree with executioners of ideals. Masters exists in abundance, and I am only one of many; thus, those who want to find the Masters will find them inside, within the profundities of their own inner consciousness.

—Samael Aun Weor

September 26, 2011
"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."

— Rumi

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July 23, 2011
Etc, etc.

My version of the [social media] internet would have public bar etiquette. No religion, and no politics. The reason being is because the [social media] internet is a public place, like a coffee shop, or McDonalds. I don’t know anybody that likes being in a coffee shop, trying to read, and having a guy come up to them to tell them to believe in Jesus, or anyone else, or anything else. 

Not that there’s anything wrong with what any of these people preach. We’re not talking about substance, we’re talking about just *preaching*.

The worst thing about places with mass amounts of people, it always leans of the favor of the majority, which has their own political/religious beliefs. So every weak-minded individual leans towards that particular direction, because, well, everyone else is saying it.

I’m not trying to complain here. I know I can unfollow anyone who posts stuff I don’t like (and I will.) It’s just a thought. I would never post to my x number of followers “OBAMA IS THE BEST EVER.” Or “PLEASE VOTE FOR RON PAUL.” It’s propaganda. So many memes are reblogged all the time, thinking their so funny or true, when there’s not a single logical thing about them and they’re akin to propaganda. Just know you are just like those annoying people who’ll walk up to you, stop what you’re doing, and consider Jesus for a second, like NEVER IN YOUR LIFE have you ever heard anything like what this guy is saying.

To not be misunderstood, I am all about freedom of speech, and the destruction of censorship. People can say whatever they want. The point is there is a time and place for talks of things that are near and personal to people, like religion and politics.

April 20, 2011
Never lose faith

That you are more powerful than the enviroment around you. Today I saw something happen in public which was really not cool, and it made me think pretty negatively of my environment, along with the confirmation-bias of “ofcourse I’m not doing good in this shitty place: just look at that!” but it only took a few seconds for me to realize how not true that is. I was just convincing a friend the other day to not move far away because she thinks it would solve all her problems. And my reasoning was because no matter where we are, or what we’re surrounded by, we have the ability and even the tools to be happy and succeed. Even to be comfortable. No matter where you are. The tools are within us.

It may take more self-control, more hard work, more discipline, and more fighting the evil surrounding you, but it’s possible anywhere. If there’s something you can’t or truly should not do, it’s not because where you’re doing it, but what it is that you’re doing.

Have faith in yourself.

March 20, 2011
"People despise people as much as they despise themselves; people love people as much as they love their ideals."

A random thought. (via iamnothingami)

Thus it is revealed what is really important.

February 21, 2011
Sometimes you need to get hit

After one nice weekend, one small break from 2 jobs, one rejection, one reparation of a friendship, one failure, one reality check, one exercise, and one bout of patience, I am in a greater place I’ve ever been.

There’s nothing better than failure sometimes. It makes you realize things aren’t boring as you thought they were. It makes you realize sometimes the quickest way to fix your problem is just to get a full night’s sleep.

Friendship is fucking important.

There’s still a shit ton of things to be done, work to do, girls to date, studying to do, and most of it is gonna suck. But that’s the best part, knowing it will suck. Being ready. Dealing with it, and finding my own peace.